Knoxville Engagement Session at Ijams | LGBT Wedding Photographer
“I think for the most part, if you’re really honest with yourself about what you want out of life, life gives it to you.” - Ted Mosby, HIMYM
Part One: The super personal insight because this is a brand created around my soul’s revelations…
How I Met Your Mother is truly my favorite series and so relevant to my fateful ideas about life. The above quote is just one of the many that hit home. I've learned so much about myself over the past four years as I intentionally set out to discovery all that's within the walls that I'd built. I had buried my authenticity so deeply that I fooled myself into believing my own false truth. Looking back now I see how most of the suffering I experienced, whether in relationships or other life situations, resulted from not being honest with myself. I was never me, and because of that had never been loved for me. That, in part, is why it is so important to make everything about Magnolia + Ember = M+E. This is a self-derived brand. My passion for art, emotions, nature, and love all come to life within it.
I believe life has a way of giving exactly what is asked for - indirect or direct, through pain or pleasure. The energy I carry and actions made dictate the outcome of my experiences. When I was stuck with the mentality of needing to be the person that everyone else wanted me to be in order to be happy, I was miserable inside and out. But the moment I began seeing my own light, the pathway to true fulfillment appeared. Self-awareness has changed my life completely. The outlook on everything that surrounds my existence, my photography, my role as a mom, and countless other things are affected by this transformation.
Along my journey, I've had face-to-face interactions with folks that have further fueled me, then I've had those that don't even know I exist and their soul connections are just as crucial to my growth. I believe every person meant for someone will find their way somehow, whether on a conscious level or a higher path. Writing my story and bringing awareness to it are things that have been on my mind for quite a long time. It can be scary to be vulnerable, but I find it fundamental for liberation.
Part Two: About the couple because this brand evolves around authentic love, for myself and others.
Allison and LB are two genuine, beautiful souls that I know were brought my way through this divine intervention I speak of because they were meant for me. The further I allow myself to open up to clients, the more I discover profound reasons for our connections. Sure these two are getting married and needed a wedding photographer, but I hold on to this synchronistic idea that I cross paths with everyone for a much deeper meaning than what is seen on the surface. Clients don't realize the full effect our interactions have on me. I’ve discovered many layers of myself through the reflection of others.
After years of living with a soul-shattering emptiness, I began realizing that everything missing was already within but needed to be sought after. Once the awareness came, there was no going back. It took a while to become comfortable talking about abstract ideas with others because “people can only meet you as deeply as they’ve met themselves”, and hardly anyone in my life had anything close to the understanding that I’d experienced on my awakening journey. As a highly sensitive INFP, it can be challenging to find others to converse with about vulnerable topics. I hate small talk, crowds, and fake people. I can spot a lie or bogus personalities from a mile away. It's hard to find authentic relationships.
When I chose to speak the desire of wanting kindred spirits in my life, I started connecting with couples just like Allison and LB. People are manifesting in my life like magic. I now have more of those intelligent conversations I’ve been craving. I’m meeting people who live mindfully and with intentions just as I do. I just had to set that in motion for creation, and I did that simply by choosing authenticity. I’ve witnessed that when I follow my passions and intuitions, the Divine steps in and leads me right where I need to be. THIS is why Magnolia + Ember exists.